Dying for Love, Niggas with no bass in their voice, Barbie Nation, and other random thoughts while sick....

I.............feel like shit. I'm pmsing and battling a cold simultaneously.....talk about some bullshit, right? Yesterday I was in my car and Bruno Mars' "Grenade" came on. I fucking love that song.......but love songs like that have people all fucked up in the game. So many people's concept of love is so twisted thanks to the media. We're consumed with trying to find that perfect love that everyone sings about....which isn't realistic or healthy for that matter. I told my husband straight up: No I will not catch a grenade for you, and you shouldn't expect me to. How about instead of debating who's going to catch the grenade.....we both run like hell and duck for cover? Makes sense to me.....shit.....I'm living for love and I have no intentions of dying for it. However.......I'd take a bullet for my son......no questions asked......but that's different. I mean the songs cute and all....(and catchy) BUT if you're with someone that's talking about they'd die for you.....RUN....that muhfugga just might be crazy.....

Lloyd's new love/fuck song has grown on me. My only problem is.......I wish he had a little more bass in his voice. My 4 year old's voice is deeper than his. I'm not convinced that he can work it work it......he seems like he'd be really good at.....cuddling and shit. -shrug- Regardless....I'm really digging the song up until the part where he begins to yodel....which I don't understand why he or the songwriter felt the need add yodelling BUT I know one thing and that is: a nigga that sounds like Swiss Miss is NOT sexy. The little girls seem to like it....but once they're old enough to be disappointed by a high pitched voice muhfugga.....they'll realize the errors of their thinking.

Speaking of little girls.......I may have gotten my friend put on the Barbie Nation hitlist......my bad D*La lol. I don't get the whole aspiring to be a plastic bitch thing....but hey.....it is what it is. I only ask that if you're going to call yourself a Barbie....you atleast be pretty....do your hair....and wear some sort of makeup. There's an epidemic of basic bitches calling themselves Barbies....and it needs to be stopped. Barbie had atleast 10 jobs....Barbie had a dream house and a corvette...Barbie didn't have multiple baby daddies....Barbie was NOT sitting in section 8 housing collecting welfare waiting on her drug dealing boo to get out of a corrections facility. I wish y'all lil hoes would get it together. You're not Barbies......you're barely the 2.99 plastic Family Dollar doll. If you can't even be bothered with combing your hair or bathing (this one "barbie" I came across on FB looks like she needs to soak in vinegar for a few days)....you're not a Barbie. I really feel that Ms. Minaj needs to address her Barbie Nation and let these hoes know the requirements....because they're lost.

Anyway, two weeks until Christmas....and I'm going crazy. I have a love/hate relationship with this holiday. It's so stressful, so chaotic, and so demanding YET seeing the look on your child's face when the big day comes is so rewarding. I have a lot of shit to get done BUT my body isn't cooperating. I was supposed to start my holiday baking this weekend, but that won't be happening.....hopefully next week....cuz I don't know about y'all BUT I want some Italian Wedding Cookies, Chocolate Chip Cookies, Mocha Espresso Teacakes, and homemade chocolates. ^_^.

OH...I just looked at my previous post. And I have an update: my doctor's office is full of idiots....stressed me for nothing. I will be trying for another baby.....sometime shortly....after I find another doctor. Now I'm questioning my diagnosis. My doctor diagnosed me with Incompetent Cervix only after 1 pregnancy loss. I've been reading that its typically diagnosed after 2 or more. Maybe there's nothing wrong w/ me.....maybe my loss was due to stress from losing my grandmother a week earlier (and work bullshit) or from the amniocentisis I had 4 weeks before ....maybe my loss happened just because it happened. But yea....I want to make this 2011 baby happen....wish me luck :)
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