I Am Not The Proud Owner Of A Penis.........and It's Okay ;)

I had a good day....spent some time with my homegirls....attempted to get lunch and an alcoholic beverage BUT Buffalo Wild Wings was on some bullshit. We discussed some things.....and alot of it boiled down to men (or shall we just say niggas because some of these muhfuggas have yet to reach true manhood?) and their pure FUCKERY. I mean is it me or have men just gotten entirely too damn lazy........maybe its due to these basic bitches, maybe they feel that because those broads allow certain shit in their lives that we sensible women...will? I mean I really don't know.....I am not the Proud Owner Of A Penis, I can't relate to that mind state. I am also not a man basher....I love men....and I know some good men that really handle their business with the upmost respect. Some things are just mind boggling. Example:

My homegirl gets a text....from a male. She doesn't know who he is at first, and he decides to introduce himself as MY friend.....mind you me and this dude have a history...nothing too serious though...like a fling that ended amicably. BUT I'm not sure as to why he would consider me his friend, we haven't kept touch in years.....the only thing I can think of is that he felt calling himself my friend would lead her to be okay with him. I mean...to each their own...I'm not a hater....I didn't plant a flag with my name on his ass.....BUT if you're going to try to use my "friendship" to get some pussy.....PLEASE actually attempt to be a friend. I wonder about his intentions....did he think maybe I would've bragged about our.....relations that would peak her interest? I mean....of course I talked to my girls about it, and I had nothing bad to say......BUT is that what other women do nowadays? Is passing the dick the new thing? I mean our fling was a looooooooooong time ago and honestly if she was feeling dude, I wouldn't mind at all. But she doesn't.....and not for any reason that has to do with me.

Whatever happened to courtship? Nowadays muhfuggas hit you with a text like "Want to chill?" "I got some bottles...." What happened to "I was wondering if you'd like to join me for dinner and possibly a movie?" . Is it because some females are getting too open over Facebook likes and Retweets? Now niggas try to harass you into talking to them....hacking into your social networking accounts and text messages, and shit. Chivalry is dead.....and I want to know who killed it. Everything is so easily accessible....we spill our wants and desires on timelines. You don't have to date someone to get to know them.....all you have to do is look up their updates.

Alot of times, dudes (and chicks as well) put up a front to be that ideal match. When really all we ask for is honesty. Most of time, we women, are not expecting you to have a squeeky clean  background.....we all have our past....we've all made poor decisions...we all have regrets. What matters is if you've learned and grown from that. Someone once told me that shit.....is the best fertilizer. So people are so concerned with being THAT NIGGA or a BAD BITCH that they forget who they really are...their whole persona is built upon lies, deception, false pretenses...ect.ect.ect...in other words a bad foundation. Those do crack over time.

Nowadays it's all about instant gratification.....we want our food NOW....we want our money NOW...we want everything NOW...and we'll took the fastest route to getting what we want...without even considering it's affect especially on others..........

I'm so glad I'm not single.......I'd probably give up on dick and embrace celibacy or a really good vibrator.

Anyway....I'm going to try to post tomorrow for x-mas eve n'shit...... :) if i don't MERRY XMAS!!!!!

Dying for Love, Niggas with no bass in their voice, Barbie Nation, and other random thoughts while sick....

I.............feel like shit. I'm pmsing and battling a cold simultaneously.....talk about some bullshit, right? Yesterday I was in my car and Bruno Mars' "Grenade" came on. I fucking love that song.......but love songs like that have people all fucked up in the game. So many people's concept of love is so twisted thanks to the media. We're consumed with trying to find that perfect love that everyone sings about....which isn't realistic or healthy for that matter. I told my husband straight up: No I will not catch a grenade for you, and you shouldn't expect me to. How about instead of debating who's going to catch the grenade.....we both run like hell and duck for cover? Makes sense to me.....shit.....I'm living for love and I have no intentions of dying for it. However.......I'd take a bullet for my son......no questions asked......but that's different. I mean the songs cute and all....(and catchy) BUT if you're with someone that's talking about they'd die for you.....RUN....that muhfugga just might be crazy.....

Lloyd's new love/fuck song has grown on me. My only problem is.......I wish he had a little more bass in his voice. My 4 year old's voice is deeper than his. I'm not convinced that he can work it work it......he seems like he'd be really good at.....cuddling and shit. -shrug- Regardless....I'm really digging the song up until the part where he begins to yodel....which I don't understand why he or the songwriter felt the need add yodelling BUT I know one thing and that is: a nigga that sounds like Swiss Miss is NOT sexy. The little girls seem to like it....but once they're old enough to be disappointed by a high pitched voice muhfugga.....they'll realize the errors of their thinking.

Speaking of little girls.......I may have gotten my friend put on the Barbie Nation hitlist......my bad D*La lol. I don't get the whole aspiring to be a plastic bitch thing....but hey.....it is what it is. I only ask that if you're going to call yourself a Barbie....you atleast be pretty....do your hair....and wear some sort of makeup. There's an epidemic of basic bitches calling themselves Barbies....and it needs to be stopped. Barbie had atleast 10 jobs....Barbie had a dream house and a corvette...Barbie didn't have multiple baby daddies....Barbie was NOT sitting in section 8 housing collecting welfare waiting on her drug dealing boo to get out of a corrections facility. I wish y'all lil hoes would get it together. You're not Barbies......you're barely the 2.99 plastic Family Dollar doll. If you can't even be bothered with combing your hair or bathing (this one "barbie" I came across on FB looks like she needs to soak in vinegar for a few days)....you're not a Barbie. I really feel that Ms. Minaj needs to address her Barbie Nation and let these hoes know the requirements....because they're lost.

Anyway, two weeks until Christmas....and I'm going crazy. I have a love/hate relationship with this holiday. It's so stressful, so chaotic, and so demanding YET seeing the look on your child's face when the big day comes is so rewarding. I have a lot of shit to get done BUT my body isn't cooperating. I was supposed to start my holiday baking this weekend, but that won't be happening.....hopefully next week....cuz I don't know about y'all BUT I want some Italian Wedding Cookies, Chocolate Chip Cookies, Mocha Espresso Teacakes, and homemade chocolates. ^_^.

OH...I just looked at my previous post. And I have an update: my doctor's office is full of idiots....stressed me for nothing. I will be trying for another baby.....sometime shortly....after I find another doctor. Now I'm questioning my diagnosis. My doctor diagnosed me with Incompetent Cervix only after 1 pregnancy loss. I've been reading that its typically diagnosed after 2 or more. Maybe there's nothing wrong w/ me.....maybe my loss was due to stress from losing my grandmother a week earlier (and work bullshit) or from the amniocentisis I had 4 weeks before ....maybe my loss happened just because it happened. But yea....I want to make this 2011 baby happen....wish me luck :)
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